As the name suggests I'm in my fourth week of treatment.
Current progress is actually very easy for me to describe (sometimes progress is more subtle and difficult to notice)
Ok, so today I walked into the school cafeteria and I heard someone call my name. It was a friend of my old room mate's from a few years back. I had met her before a few weeks ago (before treatment) and then I was very nervous talking with her. (Heart racing, mind going blank, dizzy, headachey etc.)
But this time, I actually asked to eat with her and some of her friends ( of course she said yes) and I was actually the center of attention at the table, I was able to talk with mild to no anxiety. My mind didn't go blank like it usually does, and I wasn't at all noticing physical anxiety symptoms. I was able to make her and her friends laugh and we talked for over an hour about various things.
I felt really comfortable, like even if I made a mistake it was alright because I knew that people really don't latch onto people showing anxiety as much as I used to think they did. I'll want to write more on this but right now unfortunately I'm having a headache.
It's only been four weeks but I'm feeling around 20-35% better by just doing exposure therapy sessions (haven't really worked on cognitive sessions)
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